haizzz....
i'm feeling kinda down
feel like a loser
really....
looking at the drop out rate of PID i damn scared
serious
now i doubt myself for being a good designer
now its not a good time for me to feel this way i know...
especially with P1 coming up in the very near future (VERY VERY NEAR)
haizzz i don't know lahzz
was just telling my friend that design courses the competition is very high
haizzz and its a sad fact that you got to be the best and your grades must be good
don't know lahzzz....
feeling very low right now
don't know what my future lies
not even sure if i can support myself in the future...
......
lately my asthma has also been acting up
this morning woke up at 3am with an asthma attack
felt terrible...
the past few nights was also having difficulties
i know myself that my body is slowly getting worst
been having nightmares that i would actually die from asthma
and i actually have a feeling that it might eventually happen
i guess its just a matter of when...

i still have several things i would want to do in this lifetime
i still have yet to be with the girl of my dreams
and love her totally...
i still have yet to drive my own car...

help me find the strength to carry on fighting

we've all been set to drive down a speeding highway with destinations in mind
like the cars on the road, everyone travels at different speeds
some travel with luxury cars, some just ride bicycles
some get involved with accidents, some live, some die
i just wish that everyone would travels as far as they can
see, experience and achieve the sights along the way

Ping lao ming, shi wei le kan dao wo de hai kuo tian kong...