Hmmmm... i'm having a head full of mixed feelings for the past month or so.... i know that i shouldn't feel this way... moreover during this period of time when its crucial for my futher education... i'm feeling very guilty too... i'm also trying to decieve myself by playing games... the guys are always asking me to fight wars... they take me out of reality for a short period of time but however when the war ends, everything is back where before the wars starts.... i'm not even sure whether i should really let them know the truth.....(oh my favourite song is now on 93.3fm hehehX) haizzz....
i'm really confused on what to do.... alll i do now is bury myself under those books, hiding.... and occasionally fighting a war to escape reality..... i really hope things will turn for the better for me.... i don't know but i tend to do things halfway too.... i have this great urge restart my life.... i just wished that humans are like CPUs.... just press the restart button and their lives are returned to the point where they first started..... i feel that i can't commit myself to many things.... i can't do it for a long time.... wow/...... i feel kind of pyscho now.... i'm damn confused.... i just live up to the name S!@()^Eh.....